with all the strength i can muster i hurl the wooden statue across the room
a resounding impact
the glass shatters into countless pieces
flying across the room lying strewn across the floor.
i lurch for you
clamp my hand over your mouth
shove you against the wall
and let my gaze bore holes into your eyes
my own blazing with rage and fury

that of cos was only in my head
the scene that was replaying as i tried in vain to sing stupid songs repeatedly in my mind.
in reality
i sat there in silence
picking at my nails
scratching at my ankles
uneasy laughter
nodding my head like some stupid china doll
then
i hated me
for allowing myself to be put in such a situation

you dont know me
and if you keep this up
you NEVER will